Sunday, February 28, 2016

I'm stuck.

I don't know how to express myself, at least not in a way that anyone seems to understand.  I live inside my head the majority of the time and the past few years have been a relentless reminder as to why. 

I know feelings are just that, my feelings, and they don't really matter to anyone but me.  I'm tired of apologizing for what I thought it meant to be human.  I'm tired of running away from the encroaching darkness that has been following me throughout my life.  I'm tired of fighting.

I don't want to try and explain anything anymore. 
I've explained myself into nothingness.
There's no comfort anywhere, and I can't pretend anymore, there are no "smiles" left.

I'm stuck and I never imagined that the vast dark void that I've fallen into could feel so confining, so suffocating, that I can't breathe.

I'm stuck.

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Firstly I read your posts and I'm sorry you seem to be in such a dark place... If it means anything, though, your writing is truly captivating! Hope you are feeling better!

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If the lights suddenly came on, you might be surprised to see how many people are there, walking with you, also in darkness. Keep up the good writing.

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