You always tell me that I'm so beautiful when I cry
Today I was so God Damned beautiful you would have had to avert your eyes
If you'd only been there.

You said you adore me and would never hurt me
That I wouldn't have to go through this alone
But today your beautiful disaster felt more alone than you can imagine.

I tried everything I could
I called, I pleaded, I kicked the front door and cursed you
You never answered.

I understand that there are things I may never get to know about you
But you can't just disappear one day and then reappear the next
I need you now

If you're not up for the challenge, then leave me alone
Don't get my hopes up with promises of love and forever
I'd never do that to you