Monday, July 14, 2008

on the inside

it's dark in here. lonely, crazy, anxiety driven. screaming in silence, smiling in public and ferociously trying to keep it together. anger, humiliation, fear with a little shame. knowing tomorrow has to be better and this will pass just like it always does. it hurts just the same.
embarrassment for thinking this way, paranoid at times, I know I'm not rational. I think the hardest part is knowing that. fine line between crazy and creative and I walk it like a tightrope everyday. somedays I slip.
i hate days like this...

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Relax, it's normal to be crazy, everyone's crazy they only differ in the degree that they show it. You don't want to go crazy worrying about how crazy you are, relax,

psychobillygirl said...

yeah, so I don't show it most of the time and I gotta get it out somewhere. i don't usually obssess about it, however on the random days when i'm down in it i need a release.

Anonymous said...

Cool, you write with real energy and a very unique voice. Maybe you could do more of it? Either way, your blog is great and I am following along patiently.

Disturbed Stranger said...

I didn't think anyone else knew how that felt...

It's always good to know you're not alone... but how does that help with anything I don't know...